Fake Awakening

The night I remember is coming down

and my body is no more in town

thinking  I was happy just one day ago

here time feels like your heavy rain

saying “I’m okay”, I avoid “Just wished I could stay”

did someone say I need to be so far away?

Because God surely didn’t

but it’s like He locked me here with a chain

 

Walking there I wanted to die so I could remain

not whispering to myself “What if I miss the plane?”

all those nights my heart felt like a hurricane

I kept dreaming while already owning in the reign

 

Now my home feels like a stranger

so I try not to fail or lose me in anger

because any mistake could make me wait longer

would I be happy being just foreign?

A place can’t change the soul’s view

once together the illusion of the sky turning blue

I lost all of your pictures, but I still got this refrain

 

My people can’t stand me cause I keep saying your name

but it is the only steady thing in my life I maintain

“Welcome miss” please say it again

before they convince me lo/iving is vain

 

When waking up I won’t shed a tear

next to me you’ll call me your lady

I have no more reason to live here

if someone handed me a ticket now I’d be ready

I kinda wish you could come to me

but only I can reach you

in this place all my feelings wane

at least under the clock I had them drained

 

A dream to leave and a vision to change

once and forever, this unspeakable pain

I’m prepared not to miss, another weather to blame

maybe yours could make it less loud in my brain